Freestyle

Amour,

I have been cursed. Cursed with envy. I torture myself constantly trying to replenish my high; you being my drug. Looks of sadness fill my eyes from reflections I see each day in the mirrors. When will this stop? When will I stop poisoning my life and your's from the same cause? Let change come soon, for I cannot sleep. Guilt filled dreams. Heat flashes on cold sheets. Tonight, I die. You're so far. I'm far from perfect. Not in your eyes will I be greater? Never will I be enough? Days of dreaming of peace. Not will I ever be forgiven. I want you more. You are air. Take a breath. Intoxicated. Life fills me with every touch. I slip. Falling to despair; never to return. I wish it would end. My constant want. My eternal need. Never do I wish you away; Not by fear, not through hate. My constant want. My eternal need. Amour, you are life to me.

Forever, My Heart.

Love

Love;

Why is it that we always end up getting caught up in it? We may be young and get our heads into things that are even more than love. We may even get into something that we think is love.

Lust;

The evil cousin of Love. Many people may think attraction is part of love. That isn't love. Love is acceptance. Love is knowing that no matter what, you will always be there for that person.

I've had some bad things happen in my past. I've had some good things happen in my life. Alltogether, It's what makes me, me. I vowed to myself not to get caught up in some relationship when school and education seem to be more "worth it". Why is it though, that my head keeps reeling about every girl who gives me a shot?